(002 - June 2013)
Fear is easy to feed
forget to feed it this time
and observe its energy
d i s s i p a t e
as pure energy recreates you
The water bubbled over the sides of the pot
Reacting to an already heated mess inside
Eyes stopped seeing, heart started racing
How did I let myself go this far, am I OK?
A rare sight when you were unconscious a minute ago
Almost like realizing that flood your swimming in is your own doing
Or undoing that is and you know the mess you’ve made
Hours ago, days, years of accumulation
Of course that’s not all that’s been given to you
You pick up knowledge gained from years before
And tools you’ve had when you were once small and brave
And you get to work
Untitled/A very unedited Vow to life(2014)
Normally I’d never write about wanting and desire
About feeling as though you have everything but
And it drives you mad like a raging river
Maybe we shun it out of fear
Afraid it will take us out of bounds
No longer held by an organized mind with organized funk
Well let me tell you, I need that raging river
The one that takes me places,
Bursts me past walls I never dared go past
You’re afraid of it too, the unknown
But never have I been more afraid of the known
Past fears, familiarities, stagnancy, can’ts, could haves and shoulds
Nope, no more. I’ve givin’ up on giving up.
I own my actions
Not my fears
Not the past
For seriously though.
I want it.
A messy sketch for ya then!
Happy late <3’s Day